Last week was the first time I felt like I wanted to quit my work-for-study theological pursuits. I was disappointed to no longer be taking Pentateuch and extremely irked at having to handle sales of books in addition to my regular work. And I suppose all the tiny complaints of discomfort mixed in with the usual loneliness, but this time was exacerbated by the envy I was feeling because I saw first-hand how a batchmate was financially doing so well--she had a car, a condo and everything a former yuppie like me had wanted--and actually still want.
So I texted my spiritual director to ask for a meeting. I felt like I was at a breaking point. I did not know what to do. So I texted him on Thursday. He suggested we meet the following day, around noon.
Before the meeting, things divinely fell into place. I had a replacement subject for Pentateuch, i.e., Graduate Research. I was offered a share in the profits of the books I was selling (the amount does not matter... what mattered to me was the fact that they offered). And we got a check subscribing to the journal I was helping to edit. It was the first check for 2012; it was certainly the first for me since I began helping out. It felt like validation for the work I was doing. And just like that, the thought of quitting was gone. I was excited again to begin classes. And all this happened in half a morning!
When I shared this with my spiritual director, he said God helps us out when we need it. Yup. He certainly did. So thank you, Lord. And yes, I am very happy to be staying for my second exciting semester of MA in theology. Yahoo!!!
So I texted my spiritual director to ask for a meeting. I felt like I was at a breaking point. I did not know what to do. So I texted him on Thursday. He suggested we meet the following day, around noon.
Before the meeting, things divinely fell into place. I had a replacement subject for Pentateuch, i.e., Graduate Research. I was offered a share in the profits of the books I was selling (the amount does not matter... what mattered to me was the fact that they offered). And we got a check subscribing to the journal I was helping to edit. It was the first check for 2012; it was certainly the first for me since I began helping out. It felt like validation for the work I was doing. And just like that, the thought of quitting was gone. I was excited again to begin classes. And all this happened in half a morning!
When I shared this with my spiritual director, he said God helps us out when we need it. Yup. He certainly did. So thank you, Lord. And yes, I am very happy to be staying for my second exciting semester of MA in theology. Yahoo!!!
